Wednesday, December 30, 2009

time to put down?

why am i waiting for someone impossible to love me again?
infront of me juz a nice guy waiting for me?but i still cant get rid of you~<3
however,2010 coming soon.
still remember the video u took last year new year eve~
one year ardy lo,now,we just end up like tis~~


fate destiny me to love you~~<3

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

will you?

u told me you will wait for me?
will you?im forcing myself to forget you,but i can't~
if i apologize to you,will you come back to me?**
received your miss call,but u told me u juz press wrong...dissapointed~~<3

Thursday, December 10, 2009

time back to blog~

nobody understand me,nobody listen to me!gonna burst soon~
i need care,love from friends,family n even u~
working working n working...
thinking wana stop study?my heart not at study anymore~
hate to be alone~cuz i will think too much when im alone~
wad i am for u all?
rubbish?
something tat not important?

Monday, October 12, 2009

u make me crazy~

i miss u~~
everywhere every part also full of u~~~
do u know tat?

heart broken~**

Sunday, October 4, 2009

alone~=)

why i bcame like tis?phew~
mooncake festival?everyone accompany by their loved 1,or family?
me?stay home alone~i realise i like to be alone since tat day...why?heart broken?
mayb~understand wad is hurt,wad is love,n wad is alone~
actually i hav no true fren~isn't it?including u n u~phew,yea,is u~my besties b4,n my loved 1~
now,lets talk bout d first 'U',
is a she,she?i know her since form 1,v bcame best jimui cuz of joining pengawas~lols~=)
still remember i skip class with her cuz of dun like d eng teacher,v hide inside d toilet~wow,d "good" smell~walao~~~@.@ actually tat time is my 1st time to skip class,scare lo~~but actually it was fun~hohoooo=P
my 1st experience ma~~~err,bcuz of some pengawas activities,v skiped class always,so...at the final exam,both of us get a very bad result~soo,v drop from 1A3 to 2A7...actually i was damn sad when heard i'm dropped to 2A7,but i nvr regret,cuz i had a sweet memory with my jimui lo~~=)
but i know u are very sad cuz of ur result~i know ur mum hope u can get a very good result n b top student~hmm~~so,v promised each other to do well in form 2,n sorry..i leave u in form 3...~=(
bla bla bla...cant remember wad happened in form 3,just know u r more close with mj tat time~~
let's proceed to form 4 n form 5,
cant remember clearly also,cuz v hang out always~hahaXD just know u r my best best fren till now lo~keke=)
but..now,mayb u r changed~everytime i need u,u r not there for me anymore...u asked y i didnt find u for a long time,isit angry with u?actually i didnt angry u at all..till now i also dunno wad happened btween us~i didnt find u,is bcuz everytime i sms u when im down,u also didnt reply me,fine~mayb u re busy,so...im waiting u for sms me~but,u suddenly said me angry u...lol~~=.= speechless,n duno how to explain~~ntg to explain also~is u think too much?or me?
until i break with him~i tell u i miss him,i cant forget him~u just told me,u will by my side,ask me to forget him...ok,it doesnt meant anything~i know i shouldn't ask u tat question~sorry=( n sorry~million of sorry also cant get back my jimui anymore~i just wana tell u,i asked u tat question not bcuz of others,just..i wan know more bout u,if ur answer is yes also,i will wish u happy too~~i asked u tat question cuz i realise u both know each other more than i know him~hahaXD if u say no,i will trust u too~but....u think im not trust u~phew...i really trust every single word u said~hmm~~~~i thought u will attend the BBQ nite?but,is u sick or escape?1 day bfore tat nite,i ardy tell to myself i wan to fren with u like b4,tat BBQ nite mayb can make our frenship gud as b4~i'm so dissapointed when heard u are not goin to attned~~~ok,i dun wan to affect others mood~i just act nothing,suddenly jc show me a msg~walao@.@ i didnt c anything clearly,i just saw u r d sender n i saw my name,den is shout to jc enough n push her phone away~cuz i know u sure asking bout me,my heart suddenly felt so pain,n my tears goin to roll down~phew~~~~~~=.=
den i just ask chin yei pui me go take a deep breath,i used to do like tis tis few weeks,when i m sad,to control myself~but,tis time,it doesnt work~lol~~~my useless tears!i cried~cuz of our frenship~~i think back ur blog,im thinking is u dun believe me truly just wan know more bout u?or i m d one who not believe u?argh~~~~~~!!!....sumore,he was attend d BBQ too~im just transparent,he was happy?mayb?i dunno~hope he will happy la~~~
anyway,luckily chin yei is a gud audience,she just listen wad i told~okay,stop crying~~~^^
finished me n d first ' U ' story~~

wad i wana tell U: u r my best fren,i need ur trust~anyway,mayb u dissapointed on me ardy,but i hope u happy always~=) n u can FOUND ur loved 1 soon~+u...


the second 'U' story,
lalalaalaaa,everything start n end fast!=)
actually v know each other since form 4 i think~but d funny think is u hate me n i dislike u~~hahahXD
cuz of some misunderstand gua~~although v always go out together with JC gang~but v never talk a single word~~like stranger,who care?ahhahaXD
ehmmm~till end of 2008~after our sPm,v start to chat in frienster testimonial,then msn n then sms~~~=) haha~then u all went to langkawi,i thk tat is d 1st time v smsed?lol~~~haha,but then v also seldom sms la~~kekeXD
then...on DEC of tat year,kit yieng got a house warming n x'mas eve nite~she invited many of us~~lol,tat time i play n lao gai cuz my son son dunwan fetch me go kit yieng house lo~~ahaaaXD
so childish,den tat is d 1st time i ask U to fetch me~~~=)
lalaaa,lol,who knows?i thought u fetch me,giraff,jason n willie too~but at last oni me r in ur car~~~silent,not dare to talk a single word~i mean in d car~~hahaXD so funny~~=P
den bla bla bla...lazy to say~v overnite at kit yieng house lo~ den...on the next day~~ntg happen,haha,u gave me d langkawi souvenir" kinder bueno"~thx wor=)
i thought u simply said oni~~den~~~after tat day,me n u also seldom sms---> sms frequently~~
den until one day,cj,mei hwei n jc ask me go yam cha,say got something wan ask me wor,n say dun keep secret to them~~~
i just blur lo~~@.@den v went 7-eleven bought kampai den go hwei house chatting~~talk bad bout other ppl,gals talk~haha=) den they ask me wad relationship btween u n me?lol~i shocked?wad?u like me?impossible impossible n impossible~~=P lol....then i just didnt trust them,but day by day,msg by msg~i realise i got feel on U~=P remember tat time v almost sms everyday,den u told me amy disturb u~den i help u to said im ur gf lo~n u also help me to scold d chanchai~a boy who disturb me,he is younger than me~lol~~den...at last,u ask me to be ur gf~sweet<3>

*together*

1st valentine day~!hahaa~our first valentine!<3 thx=")
mayb cuz of tis u replace poh place in my heart,i realise u r more important~(cuz d previous purse is given by poh on my bday!)
inside d purse got Ur cute face ler~=) cute cute cute!happy!me?give u d cookies i made,i know it taste not good~but tat is d first time i do cookies~lols,cuz of makin tat cookies,i late to work~=(
hehe~but duno u like it anot?=X

sweet day<3
a steamboat party in weinee house~
tat day u drunk~cuz of who?me?sorry=( makin u sad~but tat was our first sweet day~for me la=P happy~i ll zhao gu u when u r drunk~=P remember yao yuan tat time so wuliao lo~XD

my 18th b'day~
before tat nite,u call me n told me u no time buy present~lol,unhappy~=Pbut nvm la,u at kampar ma~n tat nite sorry for end ur call fast,cuz somebody celebrate with me~
i need u on my bday~but u at far far de kampar~nvm lo=)
on the next day,back from skul~~yay!thx thx thx!got my present with pos laju~lolx?hhee=)
i got a polo T n a necklace from u..thx=) but y dun tell me earlier?i tot im not important for u tim~mayb is a surprise~~

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sad day~
a dating in desa park city~
when feel warm tat time,ur phone ringing,i unhappy~angry~~~
cuz of other gal msg?im selfish!xiao qi~~but sorry,cuz i care u~~~~=(
i dunwan lose u r even share u to someone~~
a hurt in my heart~~

other incident~,ur cool msg~~
everyday d same dialog,which is,
"go mum mum"
"go oi oi"
"go bom bom"
the msg not more than 1o msg per day~i cant feel ur care anymore~sad sad n sad~~=(
mayb u care me,u dun wan me tired,so ask me go oi oi,
mayb u scare i hungry,ask me go mum mum~i admit sometines when im bz i dun like reply ur msg,but sometimes i need ur care too~~~i'm selfish!!bla bla bla~~~
cant feel ur care anymore,feel lonely~~~
but someone was there for me~~get used to hang out with him~~
cuz u r far~~
as time long,i prefer chat with him more than u~@,@
lol,flower heart me,got some gud feel on him~n u knew bout it~~~our distance more far...far away!
remember tat day i get caught by polis,im sad,but u?blame me drive fast~?but i really didnt drive fast~trust me~~~im moody tat day cuz get scold by many ppl n cuz of need to retake license~but u blame on me,i need ur care~~~phew~~~~~!
but the other him: he told me,nvm,i can fetch u wad,if u need to retake ur license~~warm~?
but u~~~

then~~~me n u really.....u understand~far=(
i slowly didnt bother u,didnt care u~i go n care d guy who care me~~~sorry,hurt u much~
last month,v become better,but i realise i cant put one heart on 2 guys,i choose to leave u~cuz of our situation~cool conversation~n more~
i love u but i leave u~wan u b happy~cuz i knw u hurt cuz got the 3rd ppl btween us~~~~~~



*the end*
sad,moody,hurt,cry~~tis is wad i do everyday after 18th sept~
phew,y do i still care u?concern u~is hurt for me,everyday updated by clicking ur profile on facebook~hope to know how r u recently~but...wad i saw is...calling others honey?scare to go skul,scare to see tat gal every monday n wednesday~cuz i scare i think back U~
BBQ nite:im transparent lo,mention b4~lalalalalala~~~miss u!last word~try to forget u,but...cant control myself to stop sms u~wad i get frm u at last is cool msg n no reply anymore~~fine~~XD
thx for giraff~so care bout us~but...is a end for us~*since u got other gal?or i misunderstand u?mayb,but seem u dun wan to talk with me anymore,i know i shud put down u~thx=)


wad i wana tell U: i know is my fault in beginning~n now mayb u just wana let me angry or is a truth?i know i shouldnt disturb u anymore~everyday cry,sleep~i deserve it~!=) u said u will wait for me,but now~i dun thk so~~i still care u,but i wont disturb u anymore~will my heart wait u?mayb~until other guys replace u~


*i know i duno how to express my feeling~~hahaXD anyway,i might pronouce wrong word n use wrong vocabulary~sorry for those reader!=) n thx for reading...hehe=)

word i wan to tell son: sorry oh,i know u will come my blog too~=)
i hurt u i thk~sorry,i wil care u more!=) sayang back!=P

phew!at last i can relax liao!yay!=)








Friday, September 18, 2009

right or wrong?

am i doin the right thing or the wrong thing?
hmm...i choose to leave at last~=)
hopefully tis is a best way to let him happy always...
hope tat i wont regret wad i do when i looks at his smile~=)
take care=)


JIAYOU~<3

Saturday, September 5, 2009

lazy~
















i'm so lazy 2 upload my blog la~~~





bla bla bla...





haha~anyways,i just came back frm cameron highland trip with my f6 classmate n my dearest mr. lum~~lum lum=P!





wow,its amazing!hahaXD





u know why?cuz i catch d insect like a sopo u know~~hahaXD





other than tat,tat is d 1st time i holding a poison scorpion~my hand was shaking,i can't control my heartbeat at all~crazy me!if i get stung by d scorpion,u all wont see me in tis world ardy~~haha=P





there's some photo 2 share with u all oh~





enjoy~~=P










Wednesday, June 17, 2009

a new me~~=)

if you notice i had deleted some post~~you know why?
cuz i wana forget sumthing sad in my life...haha~=)
wad i wan now is sweet memories~lol...hahaaa=)


btw,i still wana mentioned tat it is really tired if you study in f6~
there's a lot of hw~n the lecturer go through every chapter very fast...
so of course im not a genius,tats y i thk f6 is abit tough for me~~~
so,for me to catch up wad teacher teach...i must hav enough sleep rite?
hahaaaa~~[excuses]
Gud nite all den~~i will update my blog soon n the tittle will bout f6 prom nite.=)
muak!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

...

totally lost myself!what am i doin tis few day?
i'm bcum useless day by day....
what shud i do?no feeling,no heartbeat anymore?
really hate myself~!!!
anyone to hear wad i'm thinkin?
no~!there's no one can understand~...
mayb incuding myself also dunno who am i~
changed alot?mayb......

Friday, June 5, 2009

noncense~

Looking through your eyes,theres nothing to hide
And you're no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?
Cant stop the tears from fallin
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin~

Monday, May 11, 2009

1st day!=0

2day is my 1st day went to taman ehsan for my form 6 life!=)
so exited n nervous~
but...when i reached there,my nervous dissapear~
you know why?
cuz...
i saw most of my secondary skul fren also taking form 6 there~woahhh!its a great thing you know?
i saw prabu la,khalijah la,qingxiang la,jianwah la,maychee,willie la,premah la,kalai la n bla bla bla...XD [there are so many!]
not only tat,i also saw my senior!=)
hehe,sooo happy can meet them there also...long time didnt saw them=)
but...the ceramah is bored me~=.="
since i'm also not feeling well 2day,soo i feel vry sleepy when the ceramah goin on~keke..XD
oh ya!i would like to share wad subject im goin to take in form 6:-
*MUET
*pengajian am
*mathematic T
*chemistry
*biology
hope tat i can score well in the 1st test on july n can know more new fren,lastly i hope tat i can comfort myself with the environment there!~=)
wish me gud luck!
hehe~

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

When You're Gone~


I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you~

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

nothing is tough~

2day Mr.JB told me "nothing is tough...its depends on how you think it~"
do you think tis sentences are meaningful aswell?
hehe~yesterday sooo happy oh~^^

Saturday, January 31, 2009

hohoho~~

2day i sooo tired oh...
n today very uncomfortable lorr...feeling like wana vomit~T.T
cuz i drunk...neh,my manager n senior larr~bully me...heng!
BUT nvm larr...over liao ma...
you just sit infront of me 2day...
am i transparent?^^

Sunday, January 25, 2009

moooooooody...!

still got 3 hours more...
i'll follow my daddy n mummy go buy things at pasar...XD
so long never follow them go liao...
i don't like go pasar actually,cuz its dirty n hav stingy smellll...yuks!
but 2moro CNY mah...so nvm lorrrh...^^


aiyoo...dont know why i feel tat actually im not tat important for him...
am i thinkin too much??
r u care me?????