alone~=)

why i bcame like tis?phew~
mooncake festival?everyone accompany by their loved 1,or family?
me?stay home alone~i realise i like to be alone since tat day...why?heart broken?
mayb~understand wad is hurt,wad is love,n wad is alone~
actually i hav no true fren~isn't it?including u n u~phew,yea,is u~my besties b4,n my loved 1~
now,lets talk bout d first 'U',
is a she,she?i know her since form 1,v bcame best jimui cuz of joining pengawas~lols~=)
still remember i skip class with her cuz of dun like d eng teacher,v hide inside d toilet~wow,d "good" smell~walao~~~@.@ actually tat time is my 1st time to skip class,scare lo~~but actually it was fun~hohoooo=P
my 1st experience ma~~~err,bcuz of some pengawas activities,v skiped class always,so...at the final exam,both of us get a very bad result~soo,v drop from 1A3 to 2A7...actually i was damn sad when heard i'm dropped to 2A7,but i nvr regret,cuz i had a sweet memory with my jimui lo~~=)
but i know u are very sad cuz of ur result~i know ur mum hope u can get a very good result n b top student~hmm~~so,v promised each other to do well in form 2,n sorry..i leave u in form 3...~=(
bla bla bla...cant remember wad happened in form 3,just know u r more close with mj tat time~~
let's proceed to form 4 n form 5,
cant remember clearly also,cuz v hang out always~hahaXD just know u r my best best fren till now lo~keke=)
but..now,mayb u r changed~everytime i need u,u r not there for me anymore...u asked y i didnt find u for a long time,isit angry with u?actually i didnt angry u at all..till now i also dunno wad happened btween us~i didnt find u,is bcuz everytime i sms u when im down,u also didnt reply me,fine~mayb u re busy,so...im waiting u for sms me~but,u suddenly said me angry u...lol~~=.= speechless,n duno how to explain~~ntg to explain also~is u think too much?or me?
until i break with him~i tell u i miss him,i cant forget him~u just told me,u will by my side,ask me to forget him...ok,it doesnt meant anything~i know i shouldn't ask u tat question~sorry=( n sorry~million of sorry also cant get back my jimui anymore~i just wana tell u,i asked u tat question not bcuz of others,just..i wan know more bout u,if ur answer is yes also,i will wish u happy too~~i asked u tat question cuz i realise u both know each other more than i know him~hahaXD if u say no,i will trust u too~but....u think im not trust u~phew...i really trust every single word u said~hmm~~~~i thought u will attend the BBQ nite?but,is u sick or escape?1 day bfore tat nite,i ardy tell to myself i wan to fren with u like b4,tat BBQ nite mayb can make our frenship gud as b4~i'm so dissapointed when heard u are not goin to attned~~~ok,i dun wan to affect others mood~i just act nothing,suddenly jc show me a msg~walao@.@ i didnt c anything clearly,i just saw u r d sender n i saw my name,den is shout to jc enough n push her phone away~cuz i know u sure asking bout me,my heart suddenly felt so pain,n my tears goin to roll down~phew~~~~~~=.=
den i just ask chin yei pui me go take a deep breath,i used to do like tis tis few weeks,when i m sad,to control myself~but,tis time,it doesnt work~lol~~~my useless tears!i cried~cuz of our frenship~~i think back ur blog,im thinking is u dun believe me truly just wan know more bout u?or i m d one who not believe u?argh~~~~~~!!!....sumore,he was attend d BBQ too~im just transparent,he was happy?mayb?i dunno~hope he will happy la~~~
anyway,luckily chin yei is a gud audience,she just listen wad i told~okay,stop crying~~~^^
finished me n d first ' U ' story~~

wad i wana tell U: u r my best fren,i need ur trust~anyway,mayb u dissapointed on me ardy,but i hope u happy always~=) n u can FOUND ur loved 1 soon~+u...


the second 'U' story,
lalalaalaaa,everything start n end fast!=)
actually v know each other since form 4 i think~but d funny think is u hate me n i dislike u~~hahahXD
cuz of some misunderstand gua~~although v always go out together with JC gang~but v never talk a single word~~like stranger,who care?ahhahaXD
ehmmm~till end of 2008~after our sPm,v start to chat in frienster testimonial,then msn n then sms~~~=) haha~then u all went to langkawi,i thk tat is d 1st time v smsed?lol~~~haha,but then v also seldom sms la~~kekeXD
then...on DEC of tat year,kit yieng got a house warming n x'mas eve nite~she invited many of us~~lol,tat time i play n lao gai cuz my son son dunwan fetch me go kit yieng house lo~~ahaaaXD
so childish,den tat is d 1st time i ask U to fetch me~~~=)
lalaaa,lol,who knows?i thought u fetch me,giraff,jason n willie too~but at last oni me r in ur car~~~silent,not dare to talk a single word~i mean in d car~~hahaXD so funny~~=P
den bla bla bla...lazy to say~v overnite at kit yieng house lo~ den...on the next day~~ntg happen,haha,u gave me d langkawi souvenir" kinder bueno"~thx wor=)
i thought u simply said oni~~den~~~after tat day,me n u also seldom sms---> sms frequently~~
den until one day,cj,mei hwei n jc ask me go yam cha,say got something wan ask me wor,n say dun keep secret to them~~~
i just blur lo~~@.@den v went 7-eleven bought kampai den go hwei house chatting~~talk bad bout other ppl,gals talk~haha=) den they ask me wad relationship btween u n me?lol~i shocked?wad?u like me?impossible impossible n impossible~~=P lol....then i just didnt trust them,but day by day,msg by msg~i realise i got feel on U~=P remember tat time v almost sms everyday,den u told me amy disturb u~den i help u to said im ur gf lo~n u also help me to scold d chanchai~a boy who disturb me,he is younger than me~lol~~den...at last,u ask me to be ur gf~sweet<3>

*together*

1st valentine day~!hahaa~our first valentine!<3 thx=")
mayb cuz of tis u replace poh place in my heart,i realise u r more important~(cuz d previous purse is given by poh on my bday!)
inside d purse got Ur cute face ler~=) cute cute cute!happy!me?give u d cookies i made,i know it taste not good~but tat is d first time i do cookies~lols,cuz of makin tat cookies,i late to work~=(
hehe~but duno u like it anot?=X

sweet day<3
a steamboat party in weinee house~
tat day u drunk~cuz of who?me?sorry=( makin u sad~but tat was our first sweet day~for me la=P happy~i ll zhao gu u when u r drunk~=P remember yao yuan tat time so wuliao lo~XD

my 18th b'day~
before tat nite,u call me n told me u no time buy present~lol,unhappy~=Pbut nvm la,u at kampar ma~n tat nite sorry for end ur call fast,cuz somebody celebrate with me~
i need u on my bday~but u at far far de kampar~nvm lo=)
on the next day,back from skul~~yay!thx thx thx!got my present with pos laju~lolx?hhee=)
i got a polo T n a necklace from u..thx=) but y dun tell me earlier?i tot im not important for u tim~mayb is a surprise~~

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sad day~
a dating in desa park city~
when feel warm tat time,ur phone ringing,i unhappy~angry~~~
cuz of other gal msg?im selfish!xiao qi~~but sorry,cuz i care u~~~~=(
i dunwan lose u r even share u to someone~~
a hurt in my heart~~

other incident~,ur cool msg~~
everyday d same dialog,which is,
"go mum mum"
"go oi oi"
"go bom bom"
the msg not more than 1o msg per day~i cant feel ur care anymore~sad sad n sad~~=(
mayb u care me,u dun wan me tired,so ask me go oi oi,
mayb u scare i hungry,ask me go mum mum~i admit sometines when im bz i dun like reply ur msg,but sometimes i need ur care too~~~i'm selfish!!bla bla bla~~~
cant feel ur care anymore,feel lonely~~~
but someone was there for me~~get used to hang out with him~~
cuz u r far~~
as time long,i prefer chat with him more than u~@,@
lol,flower heart me,got some gud feel on him~n u knew bout it~~~our distance more far...far away!
remember tat day i get caught by polis,im sad,but u?blame me drive fast~?but i really didnt drive fast~trust me~~~im moody tat day cuz get scold by many ppl n cuz of need to retake license~but u blame on me,i need ur care~~~phew~~~~~!
but the other him: he told me,nvm,i can fetch u wad,if u need to retake ur license~~warm~?
but u~~~

then~~~me n u really.....u understand~far=(
i slowly didnt bother u,didnt care u~i go n care d guy who care me~~~sorry,hurt u much~
last month,v become better,but i realise i cant put one heart on 2 guys,i choose to leave u~cuz of our situation~cool conversation~n more~
i love u but i leave u~wan u b happy~cuz i knw u hurt cuz got the 3rd ppl btween us~~~~~~



*the end*
sad,moody,hurt,cry~~tis is wad i do everyday after 18th sept~
phew,y do i still care u?concern u~is hurt for me,everyday updated by clicking ur profile on facebook~hope to know how r u recently~but...wad i saw is...calling others honey?scare to go skul,scare to see tat gal every monday n wednesday~cuz i scare i think back U~
BBQ nite:im transparent lo,mention b4~lalalalalala~~~miss u!last word~try to forget u,but...cant control myself to stop sms u~wad i get frm u at last is cool msg n no reply anymore~~fine~~XD
thx for giraff~so care bout us~but...is a end for us~*since u got other gal?or i misunderstand u?mayb,but seem u dun wan to talk with me anymore,i know i shud put down u~thx=)


wad i wana tell U: i know is my fault in beginning~n now mayb u just wana let me angry or is a truth?i know i shouldnt disturb u anymore~everyday cry,sleep~i deserve it~!=) u said u will wait for me,but now~i dun thk so~~i still care u,but i wont disturb u anymore~will my heart wait u?mayb~until other guys replace u~


*i know i duno how to express my feeling~~hahaXD anyway,i might pronouce wrong word n use wrong vocabulary~sorry for those reader!=) n thx for reading...hehe=)

word i wan to tell son: sorry oh,i know u will come my blog too~=)
i hurt u i thk~sorry,i wil care u more!=) sayang back!=P

phew!at last i can relax liao!yay!=)