who am i?

渐渐的我们越来越远。
或许每个人都察觉到，只有你例外。难道对你来说得到了的爱情就真的再也不需要用心地去经营了吗？
没错，我喜欢有上进心的人，可是要得到你的关心难道真的那么的难吗？我不是你身边的蝴蝶。你可以对那些蝴蝶不理不睬，那是你的事，可是你别想要用在我身上。
有时候我也很迷惑，我到底是你的谁呢？我希望你跟我谈的是我们之间的事，而不是跟我说你工作的事，我不是不愿意当你的聆听者，只是在那之前，你就不能先谈我们的事吗？我觉得我们之间的问题越来越大了？难道你没想过要怎样去解决？
我对你越来越反感了，心痛也慢慢减少了，是不再有期望的原因吗？或许是吧，我想我已经看开了，因为继续的执著只是让自己更痛苦罢了，不是吗？

我们的问题不能再搁在一边了，我是认真的！
因为我再也受不了这种感觉。

IM back!

hey,i'm backkkkk!
i think all of you know when i visit my blog that means im in a bad mood!
Well, sometimes i feel wanna give up! on you~
yeap! i cant accept and cannot forgive,so? you just good enough, but you cannot erase away your past, isnt?! I rather be alone since 2 years ago after broke up with Mr S!
Last time i thought if i fall in love with someone who love me more than i love him would be better.
BUT, im wrong~! Because guys are all the same! after they own you, they abandone you,they let you feel unsecure,lonely and suffer.
many of my friends always said he was a nice guy~in term of? because he knows everything? because he do everything for me? phew, how many of you didnt know that actually i can do everything for him too! If you are my close friend, you will know i am the one who looks "dont care" about everything but actually in the deep heart i "care more than others can thought"!
closed myself in bedroom and cry silently not my style! But i used to do this since one years ago, after i knew the truth! I trust him for so many years, but he broke my heart after told me the truth! seriously, i feel wan die on that time! i feel there is no any reason for me to continue my life! OK, one year past, so? the scar in my heart still so obvious, the time doesnt make the scar lighter!
Fine, seriously i hate the "pou ka" ~ flirtttttt! and he is the one who love to "pou" last time!
you make me cant trust you!
after the first lie, people will forgive you,
after the second lie, people will say give you one more chance,
BUT after the third lie, you not worth for others to trust anymore!

...bullshit

you care me?
you love me?

no mood now:)

All out of love~

I am lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too
but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that
I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh, so right

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that
I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
what are you thinking of

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late I know I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Something about you~

1st:
Alot of ppl ask me where will i go after my STPM,if last year,sure i will answer kampar UTAR,haha,you know la,my result ma ma dei,mau masuk local U pun susah.So,i decide to go UTAR lo,at least the requirement for entry the U is lower than local U,second reason is i wan choose my favourite course.i dont want like my eldest sis,study biology,but end up studied statistic in local U due to alot of ppl compete for the better course!
But now,my answer is: i will go sabah or sarawak local U~You know why?first,it is easier to enter the U,since less ppl will apply for sabah &sarawak. second,there is so little local U have the science course.third,i dun wan see sumone everyday if i study in kampar.so lame hor?am i escaping?i think so,i'm scare.i duno how to face him~=.=''
i told this to kent and kit before,they disagree me to go so far,mayb i'm not mature enough,they worry me cant take care of myself there and they said they will miss me!=D hehe,for sure,i will miss them alot too,i will miss our happy time in yokotaya.='( arghh,i dun wan to leave you all la weh!later no ppl pui me keng sam si jor=( ok,stop blah blah-ing 1st~
back to the topic,kent told me,he hope that i can go kampar to study,cuz he can always fetch kit kit & dailou go there visit me.but he knw wad i worry,he said if one day,me and you close back,friend friend back like before,he will wish me happy ;) but he will still come visit me in kampar always,just hope me dun go so far~so touching lo weh! always make ppl feel so touch, "2 bed" lo him~~=(
haiz,i always ask thong brave to face Hoeng,but me,also same with her only,keep escaping~=.=
hmm,duno la,all this wait i finished STPM only fan la,fan sei me>.<

2nd:
030710,your b'day this year;) still rmb one day before your bday we celebrate your bday at the one cafe in Kota damansara?that day we sit quite far away right?but hor,kent say i look at you diff on that night~=.= LOL,actually i din look you in that way as kent say la=.=
i just scare to look at you,but you know la,impossible i just look at my drinks for whole night ma,for sure i will look at everywhere~so,sometimes when bu xiao xin look at your side,i will quikly look another side,cuz i scare you look at me at the same time lo=.=''' kent keep say me got "ke wang de yan shen". actually not la,just duno how to face you nia~

3rd:
LOL!this one most zha dao!really give my mummy BOOM dao=.=
today she suddenly say wan see i post to facebook de photo,den i open and let her see lo.
den see see see....
she suddenly say: so many of your friend hor,still that yongkang know how to ban leng leng and quite leng zai hor,although his size is small abit la~=.= at that moment,i really swt lo,i really very seldom to talk you infront her geh ler,got also 1 time or 2 time only,duno why she so rmb you,others friend dun see her so rmb=.= ~ see,my mum so rmb you,geng liao lo!XD
haha,dun so lc sin,my mummy also got say kheun leng zai oh,kheun really got "mama yuan". cuz alot aunty like him so much~~~XD

4th:
i wan say i finished my story jor~:)
everytime i write my blog also in a sad & lonely mood.but today it just normal;) no special feeling~<3

By:Linyi

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phewww~!i'm so down today~why?!
stress?him?you?or......?
STPM is getting nearer,and im still here,doing nothing~
hmm,lets talk bout my MUET,LOL,i got band 3,is half of the highest~=.= and i decide to retake in november,one more subject to concentrate and my Rm60 gone~=( really envy willie them no need to retake,cuz for art stream band 3 is ardy enough~still thinking,am i suitable to be a science stream student?!

its been a long time i never update my blog,when i came to my blog,means tat i really down on tat specific day,cant find someone to talk to~

however,actually i saw his blog on my b'day,duno why tat day hav the feel to visit his blog~
and i saw the post "?" ~wad is tat bout?!huh?talking bout me?alot of ppl ask me to view his blog,and all ppl think the ppl he mention is me?i still in his heart?hmmm,i duno~my name is not LYY wad?LYY means Loh ying ying[viky]?mayb?haha~!anyways,really hope tat he will happy always and like the present we bought him;)

today me and my classmate done something fish lo~=.=
today our school hav the senaman seni early morning,and hav the hulahu competition,4 of us (me,thong,sokyee,meiwei) so sampat and go take part in hulahu competition~LOL!really shy ler,ask us shake our butt infront whole sesi pagi student,sumore is on the stage=.= but at last we also won the prizes la,so call me the queen of hulahu!XD haha~!

k la,thats all i wan to share,Gud nite all;)

知道『伪装』有多累吗？

明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。

明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。

明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。

明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着。

明明知道说这样的话会伤害他，却忍着心疼装作轻松的说出口。

明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。

明明这样『伪装』着很累，却还得依旧~